***yes...you're all gonna love me... (evil laughter)

by the way... CALLING ALL MASCIANS NA NATURUAN NI MA'AM IMMACULADA GUMBOC either sa Finite Mathematics o sa Analytic Geometry/Elementary Calculus... Let's pray for the speedy recuperation of her husband.. almost 2 months na siyang nasa coma... Einstein05, specially, tayo'y mag pitch in naman...

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ang pinaka-mabigat na senyales ay ang aking pagsisimula na mag-ipon para sa mga reregaluhan ko ngayong Pasko... Andyan ang aking mga kabarkada.. mga 20 ata sila.. hehe.. andyan si mama at ang aking tita... at...kung di lang nagkanda leche-leche ang lahat.. andyan din sana ang noo'y nagmamay-ari ng aking puso....hehehe...

naaalala ko noong Pasko last year..wala akong regalo sa kanya.. pero siya..may regalo sa akin... coin purse.. kahit ako'y natawa at ikinumpara ito sa picture frame (sabi ko pag may nagregalo sa akin ng picture frame ihahampas ko yung frame sa pader).. ako'y natouch parin.. kahit ala akong gift sa kanya ay nagregalo pa siya...

bago dumating ang delubyo ng huling huwebes ng Oktubre...nag-iisip na ako kung ano ang mareregalo ko sakanya.. naisip ko noon na tila gusto ko siyang regaluhan ng "something...nice..and something naughty"... hehe.. kasi.. nice siya sa harap...naughty siya sa loob..hehehehe..

ngunit nangyari ang nangyari... I spent the first few days crying in bed... wondering why I let myself be that big of a fool... but then... my mom introduced me to a word that liberated(hehe) me from the spectre known as "THE DARK"....

CATHARSIS- to purge.. in tagalog.. pagpurga.. Sa sarili ko.. ako'y naghanap ng maaaring magpaligaya sa akin... at for the first time in a long time.. I didn't rely on others for my happiness...CATHARTIC in a CONUNDRUM...- at first nahirapan ako.. kasi ba naman.. I was wallowing in despair and sadness.. I couldn't find that beacon of hope... hanggang malasing ako ng mga barkada ko.... at kinabukasan... sa sakit ng aking ulo..at tiyang nagrerebolusyon... umayos na ang aking pakiramdam... CATHARTIC out of a CONUNDRUM...

pero minsan...pag wala akong ginagawa(like now).. hindi ko parin mapigilang isipin siya...at ang gabing iyun.. when it seemed like the roof was gonna give in on me.. and we were locked inside that house...no way out...and I find myself three steps backward...wherein I have to go back to those beautiful memories I have na hindi siya kasama...after half an hour or so.. I'm back...


sabi nila.. Christmas daw is a time of forgiveness.. as God forgave man for their sins.. so should we daw... unfortunately... I don't think na I have the constitution to forgive yet...

We'll have a party sa December... I don't know kung pupunta siya... The awkwardness would be cosmic..

Ngiti nalang tayo... frowning adds 10 years to your complexion...

COUNTDOWN TO THE UP OBLATION RUN: 18 DAYS... (DECEMBER 15)

**PULA AT LUNTIAN LUMALABAN! UP SUGOD! HUH!!**

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I find the story a bit surprising at first.. but commendable none the less... But I do feel loads of compassion towards the guy kasi he really has to STRUGGLE to be able to cope with the tide of hardships na kaakibat ng buhay-pinas...

I do, however, find that with the credentials he has.. e hindi pa ata siya nakakahanap ng right opportunity for him...methinks he more than deserves it...

http://coconuter.blogspot.com/2004/12/my-resume.html (his resume)

(nagulantang ako sa kanyang credentials... pwede bang humingi ako ng onti?..hehe)

and the guy already has a family to support... so let's help The Coconuter in anyway we can..visit his site if you haven't already done so...(the link is in my side bar)... kaya spread the word.. MABUHAY ANG COCONUTER!

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When Good meets Bad-Part2: HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN ARAO! (actually.. belated na)

Kevin Arao and me.. hehehe.. nung 1st day of the official vacation nung 4th year.. i swear we didn't agree na green ang isusuot namin.. hehehe.. :)

Kevin- crush ng lower years ng MaSci.. ilang girls na ang nag-ask saking picturan siya.. haha.. i tell them that they have no taste..hehe

-galing mag-gitara.. but didn't fulfill his promise to teach me.. ATRASO!

-sucks at singing!.. (remember your HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDICE song?..hahahaha)

-tinawag akong mababaw at pina-iyak ako a week before graduation at iniwan akong naghahagulgol sa harap ng school..bute dumating si Donald.. hehehe..

-showbiz ang luvlyf! ("we're just friends" effect ka diyan)

-nagkamali ang dentista at nasira ang ngipin niya.. muka na siya ngayong daga.. hehehe..

-SOBRANG LAKI NG KANYANG EGO!... to compensate for something??... hahahahaha.. joke..

-pero good friend yan...hehe..one of my best friends... my brother.. :) ..Labyu Bro! :)

***ang tanong.. kelan lalambot ang tuod mong dila?.. hahahaha.. peace! :)

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Independence Day: a journey back to a past not yet forgotten

Admit it(again)... there's always that nagging voice inside your brain that shouts how much he/she wishes to go back to the way things were before you said those stupid words..or did that stupid thing.. or before whatever disaster fell upon you and your loved one(s) that destroyed whatever dreams and aspirations you held so dear...

everyday.. the voice gets louder and louder.. No matter how much you try to ignore it.. bury it.. try not to listen to it.. it becomes a part of your everyday thinking... until you yourself voice it out...

"i wish things were back to the way they were.. nung ok pa kami.. nung ala pang problema.."

and sometimes.. those words make an attempt to materialize.. ikaw.. with all the hurt you've gone through.. you still make an effort to mend or undo whatever damage was done... na bibili ka ng isang libo o kaya'y mas marami pang mga band-aid.. gauze.. betadine at alcohol para lamang ma-gamot ang kasiraang naganap...

and sometimes.. it seems to work.. nag-uusap kayo about stuff.. nagtetext.. nagiinteract... but something in it seems irrecoverable already... para bang may kulang na sa inyong dalawa.. a (or more) a fissure of some sort.. and try as you might... you can't seem to plug that hole anymore... and then we are left feeling so frustrated and unsatisfied...

but we persist... human nature tells that when dealing with emotions.. the primordial mind takes over and effectively shut-down the complex thinking mush we call our brains... wala nang rationality ang pag-iisip.. just a last-dicth effort to save whatever could be saved.... but still... it's futile... things could never go back to the way they were...


its the paradox of life... even if you improve on certain aspects of the relationship that we didn't before... it's still quite impossible to revert to the once peaceful time that the people concerned shared...


so why then do we do it?... unfortunately.. as socially-active and bond-needing beings we are.. we crave for that semblance of the past that made us soooooo happy back then... it's inculcated in our minds- that feeling of bliss and weightlessness pati narin yung burning passion that that person fired up sa loob loob natin...and we can't see ourselves without it... para bang addiction...

We then find ourselves trapped in a choice we know we have to make... do we leave it behind?.. or do we stay and just deal with it?... Come on... as sensitive individuals... can we really just adapt and just ignore that little voice telling you that you can't handle the change? If we choose to stay.. para kang may stockholm syndrome....you sympathize with your captors.. tas parang battered wife syndrome din!..you know it's degrading and bad.. but you choose to remain...a prisoner...

but...in the end... that craving... one way or another...gets extinguished... because even if we exhaust our persistence...just like in the Law of Physics wherein Time cannot have a negative value... things just can never be like they were before.. once altered, alter back no more........ all that's left is the wish we made.... and whatever notion of "self" we still have left... just realized it yesterday....well... Let Freedom Ring...

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Trust: Breaking the Ties that Bind, and "the Eternal Glue"

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In the regular flow of things, the stock market is the basis of assessing the progress of a certain economy or nation. If the stocks are up, the index also goes up and everyone, especially the investors, are happy. If the stocks are down, the index is also down and the entire exchange starts pointing fingers at each other for being a bad broker or whatever.


In the scheme called friendship, there are also stocks, or stakes, whatever. If things go up, that is, kung ang mga bagay ay maganda at ang pagkakaibigan ay nagpapa-angat sa bawat isa, masaya ang lahat. Everything seems fine and there's no cause for alarm or anything. Kung mag-away naman bigla, bababa ang stock ng friendship at magkakaroon ng pagkawindang sa relasyon ng dalawa o higit pang involved sa nasabing pagbagsak ng stakes..o stocks..whatever again.


So, obviously, the okay scenario here is to keep the stocks high. And the only way to do that is to keep investing.


In the market, you can raise the stocks by putting in a greater amount of money into that stock or venture in the hopes of reaping the gains that is supposed to be reaped from the said venture or stock. If, by luck, ay umangat ng umangat ang halaga nung stock, maliligayahan ang lahat lalo na ang mga investor because their investment paid off.


If we are to link a relationship with this, then we are to say that we should do the same with the said relationship. Especially with those close friends that we have. Yung mga kaibigan nating hindi natin kayang mawala. We invest a lot in the relationship. And again, we hope that the stocks go up.


If the stocks go up, not only in friendship, but also in other forms of relationships, the stakes also get higher. If we get to a point kung saan nasa tugatog na tayo ng ating pakikipagrelasyon, in the eventuality of a crash, mas mahihirapan tayong makabangon muli! In the aspect of economics: if you invest a lot in a single venture, and it crashes, then you lose your capital, you go broke. The same goes for a relationship na sobrang high ng level! You keep on investing and investing til you've given everything for the sake of the relationship. And again, should the periodic depressions come, you go down with everything. You end up a shriveled down putz; a shmuck; miserable and filled with animosity and regret.


When the stocks go up, the stakes go even higher. What's the remedy? More appropriately, why do we keep investing?


That's a question that I myself have been askin for the entire span of my adolescent life (eversince the idea of relationships entered the door of my mind) The only answer that I've gotten, and I don't know if it'll satisfy anything, is because we are social beings; we thrive on social contact and expansion. The mere fact that we enter into relationships gives this. But the idea of investing is because most of us believe that the relationship is worth something more than what society dictates as the normal level. We feel that the connection between the parties deserves attention and care a bit higher than that of the others. Moreover, we know that we love the other party and that we care immensely for him/her/them. If we thought otherwise then we would have just settled for a relationship as shallow as an acquaintance.


We cannot completely, or even partially, escape crashes in relationships. In the end, it remains up to us where we draw the ceiling mark. But then again, if we think that the connection is worth a lot to us, why not take the risk?

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Eurotrip in the Heart of Manila

was supposed to watch a movie yesterday.. but it didn't push through.. so I'm gonna fill my tanks for Friday... Then Eastwood...NOW Shangri La...

I attribute this gala to aahhhron.. hehehe.. I saw in his blog that it was gonna be free... SO WHY PASS IT UP?.. from UPd.. poproceed kaming Shangri La... THANK GOD FOR THE MRT!

CINE EUROPA runs from Nov. 9 to 19 at the 6th level of the Shangri La Plaza.. :)

hope to see some of you guys there!..hehe.. (malay diba.. :P)

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Labels: dreams, UAAP

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Nagbalik si Zizou mula sa kanyang napakagandang panaginip sa Mundong-Ibabaw (maaaring dahil ang naturang panaginip ay dinala siya sa impyerno sa "kabutihan" nito..hehe) nang tumunog ang kanyang alarm clock sa cell phone niyang gusto na niyang ihampas sa pader sa ka-cheapan...

3 oras ang inaga ng kanyang pag-gising. 7:30 palang iyon at kadalas'y alas onze ang gising niya.. agad siyang naligo at nag-ayos ng sarili upang magmukhang presentable sa mga makakaharap niyang mga kapwa teenedyer(wahahahaha!!) sa KOMISYON NG MGA FILIPINO SA IBAYONG-DAGAT, isang prerequisite bago siya maka-alis ng Pilipinas.. wari isa itong Guidance Counseling program ng Gobyerno upang ihanda ang mga lilipat sa ibang bansa sa kanilang mga nararapat na gawin dun...

Nilakad lang niya ito mula sa kanyang bahay dahil napaka-lapit lang ng Quirino sa kanila.. isang kalsada lamang ang namamagitan.. Pagdating niya doon.. SIYA'Y NAGULAT sa kinasapitan ng kanyang kapwa Emigrants...........

Ang mga kabataan ngayon na aalis patungong Amerika ay tila nangangailangan ng tulong sa pananamit!!! ARTICLE A, B at C! AVANT GARDE BA ITO???

• naka-cordoroy pants na BASTON na puti yung isang lalake
• yung isang babae e tila bumangon lang sa kama at dumiretso na doon at di man lang naisipang magsuklay ng buhok...
• yung isa ay may bonnet na ala Bob Marley na mukhang pam-panadero.. yung parang galing Baguio na may yellow.. red.. green.. black at iba pa.. dude.. Wear that in Baguio..

At eto pa ang kanyang nalaman....

pagdating niya sa Estados Unidos ay nangangailangan siyang mag sign-up sa Military-Service-Selective-Program nito.. kung saan at any time ay maaari siyang tawagin ng gobyerno ng Amerika at ipadala sa kung saang sulok ng mundo... CONGRATZ TALAGA!!! anu naman kaya ang gagawin niya doon?.. MAGSHUSHOE-SHINE?.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! (Friends...GM!..remember?..hahahaha)

tinatakan na ang passport niya matapos ito at siya'y umuwi na at nagpagupit sapagkat pinipilit na siya ng kanyang mga kaibigan na magpagupit..

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Bakit ba ang dami ng jokes sa text tungkol sa etits?.. kagabi ang dami kong natanggap.. mga 4 atang bersyon ng iisang pormat.. hahahahahaha..

1. "Bakit tuwing nagagalit ako natutuwa siya?"- etits
2. "Bakit tuwing hinahawakan ako e sumusuka ako?"- etits
3. "Bakit ba nila ako ginagawang pantoothbrush?"- etits
4. "Bakit tuwing nagagalit ako e sinasakal nila ako?"- etits

to think nanggaling yan lahat sa text na:

"bakit ba tuwing nagmamahal ako e nagagalit sila?"- gasolina... ang mga tao nga naman.. CONSERBATIB TALAGA!!

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The Rape of Nanking (modesto style)

nakakatuwa at nadagdagan ang Linnae party-ers ng 2..hahahaha.. after almost 5 parties with the same faces e nadagdag sila Anj at Candice.. Since it is held in Manila.. most of the UPd people cannot make it.. E ako?.. UPd stationed in Manila.. hahahaha..(can't wait to enroll!!!..MY GALLY!!.. ang hirap ng enrollment process sa UPd!!)

One characteristic of Linnaean parties is the COMPLETE LACK OF DECORUM!!.. lahat ng breeding at class e iniiwan sa pintuan oras na buksan na ang container ng pagkain.. guilty din ako diyan!!.. hahaha.. wala ng mga paki sa aming "manners"..hehehehe..

isang magandang example e yung nangyari kanina... nag-order kami ng pizza..2 box so 16 slices.. e 9 kami.. nung una ay may "concerned effect" pa kami sa mga maaaring hindi makakain.. pero nang lumipas ang 3 segundo.. nagkanya-kanyang agawan na sa pizza ang mga tao.. AS IN AGAWAN!!.. malingat ka lang e may kukuha na ng stuffed-crust mu.. hahahahahaha..ANG CHEAP.. stuffed crust lang agawan pa.. hahahahaha..

matapos iyun ay nagsimula nanamang gawing bahay-rape ang bahay ko.. hahahaha.. pag walang guys halos.. girls ang hinuhubaran ng gilrs.. pero pag maeron.. lahat ng male guests e "ginagahasa" ng mga girls.. hahahahahahahaha.. HUBARAN DAW!!..(Aying knows this all too well..hehehe) bwahahahahahahaha.. so ang unang puntirya e tanggalin ang pantalon!!.. hahahahaha.. kahit anong palag ang gawin ng mga boys and girls e wala na silang magawa... unless sipain o kalmutin nila yung mga nanghuhubad sa kanila.. hahaha.. WAWA.. ako e naging biktima na niyan.. sinira nila ang Square.Pants ko na binili ko pa sa Divisoria.. UNIQUE at MAMAHALIN!!.. hahahahaha.. :)

at ang victims today... Anj(my golly.. nakita na ang kaluluwa mu dear..)..si Candice(na nakapalag dahil kinalmot si Aza).. at si Keb(as usual)...

natapos ang gabi ng nag-usap kaming puro "kalinisan" at "kainosentehan".. walang halo ng kabastusan.. I SWEAR.. HINDI KO KAYO NILILINLANG.. hahahahahahaha.. :) ..and to think e conservative kaming lahat.. hahahahahaha.. :)

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LORD THANK YOU AT ANLIGTAS SI MAU AT GIAN!! THANK YOU ALSO SA KAPANGYARIHAN NG LUPA!!

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ALL AT ONCE...

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Araw gabi.. NALALASING SA TUWA...pero selos na selos!

so.. nais ko lamang ibahagi ang mga paborito kong linya ng pagseselos....

1. Sino yang katext mo?- bawat ring ng cellphone e tila tumunog ang fire alarm sa paranoia mo.. malay nga naman natin.. may kinakarir in secret ang iyong special someone!..hehe
2. Threat ba siya?- tanong yan kapag hindi mo na magawang pilitin ang isang tao na iwaksi yung umentra mula sa buhay niya.. kaya iaassure mo na IKAW parin.. ngunit mag-ingat!! maaaring sabihing HINDI..pero sa kalauna'y OO pala!!
3. Dun ka na- ang linyang nag-aabang ng lambing mula sa iyong kausap.. hinihintay mong sabihin niya.. "di..dito ako"..
4. Alam naman natin kung bakit ka pumunta dun- hahahaha..natawa ako bigla.. ang linyang to ay para sa mga taong dinadalaw ang 3rd party tapos papaalam sayo.. as if naman wala lang sayo diba..
5. So magkasama kayo nung buong time na yun?- yan ang masasabi mo kapag nalaman mong magkasama sila.... but wait for the excuse to follow... they're just doing some co-curricular activities... talaga lang a.. tawa nalang tayo.. hahahahahahahahahahaha...
6. RESPECT MY PERSONAL SPACE- PANIC na!!.. galit na yan!!.. yan kasi.. pinagselos mo pa alam mo na ngang SELOS na SELOS na!!..hehe..

don't assume that this is from personal experience a.. hahahahahahahaha.. I SWEAR na hindi... HINDI KO KAYO NILOLOKO.. hahahahahahahahahaha.. I PROMISE DI KO KAYO NILOLOKO.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!.. nababaliw na ako.. kasalanan to lahat ng mga bwisit kong friends!!..

thank you sa kasama ko kanina.. nakakatawa.. hehehehehehe.. nasa jeep kame may nakita kaming vendor ng kendi na kinukutuhan... may bibili pa kaya sa kanya??..hehehehehe..

at payong kaibigan lamang frends.. kahit depressed... e palaging tandaan na kung pumasok sa utak niyu na tumungga ng TEQUILA e dapat may chaser akei?.. lime o coke!.. kasi pag naka-abot na kayo ng 8th shot na walang chaser e parang sasabog tiyan niyu!!... I SWEAR I'LL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN..

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For years.. I have been bombarding people all over MY world with my unsolicited and imperious "verbals": both in song..and in prose... The time has come to reinvent my methods and to let the whole earth(not just my earth) in on what I have to say... and I asure you..

IT'S GONNA BE A HANDFUL...

now that I am in a new land, my voice may just be a liliputian yelp.. but rest assured, I am ambitious.. and i will not allow it to remain so..

I Advocate: WORLD PEACE






An apparent slave to fashion, one might think that my initial reserved disposition preludes an aloof posture.
A fervent believer of the Darwinian Theory: only the fittest will survive. A quasi-believer of Objectivism: you get what you earn--don't stick your hand in someone else's jar! (earned social equity RULES!!)
Veritably open-minded, but will stand firm on certain beliefs. Sings the song of life to a tune that some people might not be accustomed to. Doesn't care about it.
Goes to Church but still wallows in temptation. Prays to God that amidst the sins committed, acceptance into heaven will be assured: Heaven eternal... and heaven on earth.


Name: Raymond Ampil
Nickname: Chino
Pseudonym: Raymzizu

Born on the day that Ferdinand Magellan reached the Philippine Islands and Adolf Hitler ordered the re-armament of the German Reich in violation of the Versailles Treaty. (I ask--premonition of my ambitions?)



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