thank you for sharing this part of the journey with me... hope to see you on the other side......
-chino
Let the MUSIC rock YOU.
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Ang Pagbabalik...(DARNA!!)(edited Feb. 19, 2007 3:37pm EST)
Hey everyone.. I'M BACK!! and I'm over my cyclical mood swing.. I've been surrounded by positive energy the past few days.. and my mood swing was pretty much validated by your comments and my friend's email yesterday.. Thank you Athena!.. lol
okok.. so I have nothing deep nor mysterious to post... So let me take this opportunity to thank people, answer some questions, and say some stuff.....
FIRST
Let me thank Athena, again.. you are my exhaust fan..everytime I vent my frustrations you suddenly make them disappear!!.. Cheers to you!! :)
Let me thank Jones.. Our Y!M conversations really lift me up.. :)
Let me thank Virginia.. Jerome..Joy..Tina and Tea for your comments on my previous post..
SECOND
Jhed.. I DON'T LIKE PAUL KIM.. but since you asked for it.. I'm gonna give him ONE VOTE each time he performs with shoe-less feet and, as he said, the same draws.. YUCK; as for Chris Richardson.. I WON'T.. coz he's so generic.. There's already a JT.. and I'm already fed up with that one.. why add another?..
Paeng.. I'm fine.. :) thanks for asking..
Virginia.. my Y!M id is "raymzizu"
THIRD
Mimose!! I miss you dear!! Pagreynahan mo ang UPd with pride and honor...... yuck ang phony.. hehehehe.. :)..basta.. i miss you and the others na.. :)
Guitar_kidd... I only always carry 100php in my wallet... I usually eat foods that cost more than 100php..hehehehehehe..
Virginia.. I am not a journalism student.. but I would like to be a journalist.. hehehehe
Talamasca.. Oh I remember!! The coffee shop/diner scene with whats-her-name and Brook!!
FOURTH
WATCH CHILDREN OF MEN.. I'll elaborate later.. :)
FIFTH
Can anyone HELP ME with the feeds thing?.. I swear I'm so ignorant about these things that I sometimes get SSOOOOO frustrated... ggggrrrr.. rrraaaarrr!..LOL.. so if anyone can help me..... just leave me a message at either my Y!M (just click that little Y!M status button).. or my MSN or my email or just leave a tag message and I'll get back to you...
SIXTH
Here's something for you guys.. BETTY AND HENRY... Christopher Gorham should totally go for me....er.... aMErica ferrera.. lol!! :P (ugh!! CRAPPY WORDPLAY!! someone will get fired!)
whenever i make something for anyone.. I always give 110% of me in making that trinket.. be it a note.. a card.. a gift.. or who-knows-what it is...
and if there's something that busts my bolts.. save for being lied to.. it's when I find that what I did seems to not hold enough value for the receipient to at least keep it and treasure it or at least NOT discard it..
I am so disappointed..
Leche..
I am not a crafts person.. I suck at making paper-mache.. I'm not a Martha Stewart.. nor am I close to anything with a semblance of Martha Stewart-esque abilities.. ALL I HAVE ARE MY THOUGHTS.. AND ALL I CAN GIVE ARE MY WORDS..
when I write something for someone... All I ask is that the paper be kept...whatever form or medium that paper may be.. be it literal or metaphorical..(or digital)
I guess my words really have no value.. I think i'll have to reconsider my career-plan to be a journalist.. the people might just throw away the newspaper.. this blog... I'll have to think of it's fate.. I might just be wasting your time.....my time..
I'm just waiting for my friend to either wake me up from this expected mood swing... or affirm it with her always validating brutality when it comes to honesty...
okok.. Spoilers ahead.. Do not proceed if you plan to be in a state of suspended animation later Filipino buddies.. :)
I am quite depressed.. YES.. Sean Michel did not make it past the group round.. GGGGRRR.. So now.. I rest everything on Sanjaya Malakar.. The Indian appeal really works for him... at least that's what I think.. hehehe..
Unfortunately.. his sister, Shyamali, didn't make it also.. And they had this very touching reunion after the top 40 was announced..
GGGRRR.. as for the others.. I don't give a shit..
VOTES for SANJAYA!!.. I must have that Cingular cellphone by March!!
(how adorable!!!!!!)
(WHY?!..WHY DID YOU HAVE DRY THROAT?!!!)
**to the people who've been living under a rock lately and haven't dropped by my blog..you probably don't know that i'm obsessed with Ugly Betty and last week.. i felt like a wretch coz I watched Survivor:Fiji instead... but next week.. it's back to Betty la Fea a Ingles!..
(Christopher Gorham plays Henry in Ugly Betty.... you make me swoon............!! NERDS ARE HOT!)
**oh.. happy valentines to the eastern hemisphere.. I forgot.. VALENTINE'S DAY SUCKS!!... I thank you.. It's freezing again... I need a blanket or a hug..
According to the tabloids here in Nuevo York..... The New York Red Bulls is enticing Soccer Superstar and my idol Zinedine Zidane to come out of retirement and play for the MLS(Major League Soccer)..
I SAY.. YES!!!! AND EVEN IF IT IS FRIGID AND SNOWING OUTSIDE I WILL BRAVE THE ELEMENTS JUST TO WATCH ZIZOU PLAY!!!!
With Zizou in New York.. Becks' transfer to LA will be like.. "Becks who?".. I can't believe I said that about Becks.. but that's how the cookie crumbles....
**
American Idol Hollywood week starts tomorrow.... and I've been reviewing my mental roll-o-dex for the best AI medley I've ever seen.... and I guess it's from Season 3...
The Elton John Medley... oohhh.. I just love the sexy vibe of Bennie and the Jets.. to John Stevens' enthralling paleness... to the party stratosphere of Saturday.. hehehe.. watch it if you want.. :)
**ugh.. I know this post sucks.. give me a break ayt?.. it's been a slow news day.. hehehehe..
here's my response to RV's tag... 5 secrets?.. hahahaha..okok..
I'm not unorganized.. I am just an advocate of "Creative Chaos"
I love to be nibbled.. hahahaha...shet..
I am obsessed with my hair...
I lost a third of my virginity when I was in my early teens.. hahaha.. my close friends know the details.. haha..ok..this is somethin' i aint proud of.. but i acknowledge it as a cornerstone of my current personality.. hehehe(DEFENSIVE?!)
I am really sensitive... AS IN..
How's that?.. hehehe.. a bit of a sneak peek into my sordid life.. lol...
yesterday.. I experienced my first medical malady here in the States.. thank God it wasn't serious...
the cold's abating... so it ain't that frigid anymore... still makes you shiver though... But it's not BONE-BREAKING like the days before....
Currently listening to: L'amour est un oiseau rebelle(habanera) from the Opera Carmen
are there people here who listen to opera?? The Magic Flute?.. La Boheme? Madame Butterfly? Carmen? Anyone?
**EDIT..
was browsin through my yearbook... and remembered.... SOME STAFFERS MUST DIE..(Dr. Evil pinky pose)..hahaha..
Here in the United States.. a debate is brewing after Snickers, the chocolate bar, aired its commercial during the Superbowl last Sunday... and it's creating quite a controversy... after some sort of protest from GLAAD(Gay and Lesbian Alliance for Anti-Defamation) the series of commercials were pulled off the air(there are 3 videos with 3 endings)...they say that it perpetuates Homophobic Violence...
Others say that it's the other way around.. that it jests the said violence and its being arbitrary..
Some say that it's just a fucking commercial.. Watch it and give me your perspectives...
Now.. you be the judge.. is this video making fun of Homosexuals? or Homophobics? or is it just a freakin' commercial??
PARA SA MGA BOBO MANAMIT!! OO, IKAW!! (Fashion week report)
So today, I attempt to raise my head high and banish my depression to the cess pools of my hidden vaults somewhere in the recesses of my mind.. SHIT A..hahahaha.. yep.. As I told Kevin through text-messaging yesterday (Gawd I miss him and the others already)... I'll make it...or at least I'll try...
Ok.. on to more pressing matters..
.......
ok.. there's no pressing matter.. hahaha..
let me just wooo you again with my CUTE CUTE EDIBLE AND DELICIOUS NEPHEW.. :)
>> I plan on eating him when we visit them on March.. hahahaha.. that's why I'm starving myself til then.. gotta make room for a baby in my tummy.. hehehe.. :) ..
>>OOOOOHH!! I forgot to ell you guys that this week was New York Fashion Week.. I completely forgot.. COMPLETELY!!..
so fashion report for you girls (and guys?) that want what's the new must-have out of new york.. AND I WAS RIGHT!!!
IT'S GONNA BE TIGHTS!! TIGHTS AND LEGGINGS!! just as long as it's textured.. no cheating and saying that stockings are tights or leggings!!..lol.. this applies to men too... now now.. don't go around saying "what about the 'package'? It's gonna show!".. Well... people won't mind!!..and be proud of it fools!..hahaha.. SHOW OFF!!.. lol.. but to those who... like me.. are demure and reserved..(hahahahahaha).. here's the upside...
there are leggings that don't show much.. lol.. now.. this is relatively safe... unless you have really really fat legs.. hahahahaha.. :)
GUY REPORT:
here are the ABSOLUTE MUST-HAVE for March to August...
Slim shorts...
lightweight cardigans
the military look minus camouflage..
eye-popping colors like violet..
solid-white kicks..(shoes moron!)
GIRL REPORT:
here's the core girls..
long hair
I think we're seeing the return of gold in brooches and barrettes..
platform high-heels and ballerina flats
WHEW.. done!! now kiddies.... follow these in moderation ok ok??.. don't be a fashion victim!!
I'm a tad bit buzzed but not drunk.. so forgive me if this post is a bit incoherent.. I'll try to make it as whole as possible..
Today was a day of anonymous interaction.. for the past few days, my mom and I have been going to the hospital because my dad has been confined due to a mild case of pneumonia and intestinal flu.. he's getting better... but the doctor said that he's not gonna be released til monday or tuesday..
Because hospitals really freak me out.. I opted to take a walk by myself.. Below are the fragments of dialogue between myself and the people of NYC East..
"What would you like to have sir?"
->"One tall Caramel Macchiato please."
->"What's the name of the dog?"
"The name's Cain."
"What did we ever do before we had cellphones?"
->"I have no idea.. from where I come from if you don't have one you are non-existent!"
->"It's really cold out there today!.. they say it's gonna be around 16degrees fahrenheit!"
"Yeah.."
->"You take care now granny.."
"You too.."
hahahaha.. the "->" lines are what I said.. hahaha.. :)
in the paper today.....
(GUCCI canvass sneakers for men costs $395.. FUCK!!)
(if you go out on a rainy day without a cap or an umbrella or a hood... this is what you're gonna look like.. like Holy Mother Mary.. hahahaha)
(because of my depression.. I posted a song on the wall of the shower and sang like I've never sang before)
you know what.. lately.. I've started to go down the path of depression again.. even last night as I was going to sleep I was crying for a reason that only my closest friends know.. And right now as I'm typing this entry.. Teardrops are falling down my cheeks because of that old guy, Sherman Pore, from American Idol last night... gawd..
when I'm depressed, any tear-jerker will make me cry.. ANY.. and with that clip of Sherman singing "You Belong To Me" to his dead wife.. I crumbled like a piece of mush...aaaahhh... this sucks...
here's the video..
even fuckin' Queeras Folkmade me cry.. FUCK! (I watched season 5 yesterday)
I tried to cheer myself up.. but when I listened to happy stuff... I got so fuckin' pissed off that I just stopped..
and last night.. as i was going to bed.. I asked God that if what I'm holding out for isn't there... that He give me the maturity to accept it.....
looking ahead... uncertainty really is unnerving..
"just remember til you're home again... you belong to me.."
For years.. I have been bombarding people all over MY world with my unsolicited and imperious "verbals": both in song..and in prose...
The time has come to reinvent my methods and to let the whole earth(not just my earth) in on what I have to say... and I asure you..
IT'S GONNA BE A HANDFUL...
now that I am in a new land, my voice may just be a liliputian yelp.. but rest assured, I am ambitious.. and i will not allow it to remain so..
I Advocate: WORLD PEACE
>>CALL ME, YOUR HIGHNESSY
An apparent slave to fashion, one might think that my initial reserved disposition preludes an aloof posture. A fervent believer of the Darwinian Theory: only the fittest will survive. A quasi-believer of Objectivism: you get what you earn--don't stick your hand in someone else's jar! (earned social equity RULES!!) Veritably open-minded, but will stand firm on certain beliefs. Sings the song of life to a tune that some people might not be accustomed to. Doesn't care about it. Goes to Church but still wallows in temptation. Prays to God that amidst the sins committed, acceptance into heaven will be assured: Heaven eternal... and heaven on earth.
Name: Raymond Ampil
Nickname: Chino
Pseudonym: Raymzizu
Born on the day that Ferdinand Magellan reached the Philippine Islands and Adolf Hitler ordered the re-armament of the German Reich in violation of the Versailles Treaty. (I ask--premonition of my ambitions?)
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